Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Mini Vent Session

What I am currently thinking.
Today is one of those days when I have to remind myself to take a couple of deep breaths and to let things go (aka not be such an annoying control freak). Long story short- I've been working solo on a project for the last year. When I took this particular project over, it was a mess. Awash with bad grammar, confusing wording, misspellings, key information was missing... I spent the better part of a year trying to get it up to snuff. I worked really hard, but I'll confess, I got burnt out. About two months ago, I lost all my vigor. My fervor fizzled. I needed help. What I got was someone has started sprinting off in a completely bizarre direction (one that includes terrible grammar, missing information, and nonsensical ramblings, I might add).

What I am trying to think.
I shouldn't care so much. I know I shouldn't care so much. It's not a big deal, and I have other things I enjoy more and would rather be doing. But it's really hard to watch something I spent forever improving head for the toilet (and, again, I realize this is an exaggeration but I can't help it). Bleh bleh blarg.

Oh well, if I can finally say good-bye, then I'll have more time to finally finish something I've started writing.

Anyway, thanks for listening. I feel better. I also feel a little like Doogie Howser, MD writing into my secret diary. I love you, NPH!

I'm off to do the one thing that will officially erase my bad mood. That's right! I'm going to pour a glass of yummy shiraz and watch Scott Pilgrim! Hope you've all had a rainbow-y, unicorn-y day.


  1. No opportunity is wasted, no work done in vain. Yes, it sucks to see something you're invested in go down the toilet, but you can always--always--pull it back out. And letting something go doens't always mean it's gone forever. Sometimes it means it's gone for now, and when the time is right, you'll either find it or it will find you or something will happen where you and it finally mesh. Chin. Up.

  2. Awww, thanks cybertwin. Typing it out helped me purge my bad attitude and realize that this project existed before me and will exist after me.

    And you're right. It's not good-bye; it's see you later. If it's meant to be, I can always go back, like a soulmate. Crap, I hope this project is not my soulmate... :)

  3. I agree with Elizabeth. Even though it's hard to work on a manuscript for so long, you're not wasting your time. You're improving your craft.

  4. I'm telling you, we need to find 2 more Elizabeths and start a blog. Not only would it confuse people, but it'd be hella fun.

    Also, cybertwin--LOVES IT.